i want to leave this blog as it is..last year's new year i've anticipated good things to happen yet to no avail..
still..and again..i hv to delete yet another blog..
i'll hold on to the memories..which i'll treasure as one of the most precious one.
Showing posts with label luahan rasa hari-hari. Show all posts
Showing posts with label luahan rasa hari-hari. Show all posts
Monday, January 9, 2012
Monday, August 22, 2011
Thursday, August 18, 2011
last year's August 18
i copied this from my old blog..heheh..here was what i wrote a year ago.
"Wednesday, August 18, 2010
a real turn off
saya x suka orang yg busy gile.
busy sgt smpai xde masa even nk ckp "hi".
kalau 24/7 camtu, perlu ke nk berhubung?
heh..turn off.
busy sgt smpai xde masa even nk ckp "hi".
kalau 24/7 camtu, perlu ke nk berhubung?
heh..turn off.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
rintihan hati!!
wait!!its Wednesday already??i'm not gonna make it a wordless day bcoz i hv sooo many things on my mind:
today
1) 8 prohibitory order applications - sure die one....
2) 1 submission - due friday
3) prepare for tmrw's trial n mediation - *mataku kelip2*
4) crack the head to think of what to cook for Iftar
tomorrow
1) case managemant @ SAHC - morning
2) full trial @ KLHC - right after shah alam
3) divorce mediation @ KLHC - 2.30 pm
4) again cracking the head - what to cook???????!!
by the end of tomorrow i'll be like a vegetable..a broccoli to be exact =P
today
1) 8 prohibitory order applications - sure die one....
2) 1 submission - due friday
3) prepare for tmrw's trial n mediation - *mataku kelip2*
4) crack the head to think of what to cook for Iftar
tomorrow
1) case managemant @ SAHC - morning
2) full trial @ KLHC - right after shah alam
3) divorce mediation @ KLHC - 2.30 pm
4) again cracking the head - what to cook???????!!
by the end of tomorrow i'll be like a vegetable..a broccoli to be exact =P
Monday, August 8, 2011
Last Ramadhan
i know this entry would be a boring one bcoz i want to reminisce the old times during last year's Ramadhan..hehe..i may be living with the ghosts of my past, but they always remind me of life experiences that i should ponder on.
btw, i'm at home down with conjunctivitis n i've got nothing else better to do other than blogging =)
last year's Ramadhan, was one of the best.why?because during that time i had a person whom i can call my lover..haha!!true enough.i was in a real relationship last puasa..i had someone whom i can call at night, a person to wake at Sahur n a person to gossip with on the phone while killing the time before berbuka =)
i really miss those moments..maybe not the person, but the feeling of loving someone n being loved in return..*sigh*
even though the relationship was a short one n eventually didn't workout, i never regret it. a close friend of mine said never regret things, but rather make them lessons to remind u not to repeat the same mistakes.point taken.
today while sitting down in my couch updating this, i am actually thankful to Allah for showing me that "he" was not the one.i may have loved him for a while but Allah said he isn't the one for me.he may be capable of fulfilling my dreams (some of it) but i know for a fact that he can't complete me.
we might have thought that some persons are meant to be with us n how we hope things would happen the way we planned it but who are we to deny fate?
he may seem to be the best, but he's not perfect for me. =)
so last Ramadhan, may u rest in peace..
p/s-he doesn't know this new blog so i don't gv a damn..Selamat Berpuasa to all =)
btw, i'm at home down with conjunctivitis n i've got nothing else better to do other than blogging =)
last year's Ramadhan, was one of the best.why?because during that time i had a person whom i can call my lover..haha!!true enough.i was in a real relationship last puasa..i had someone whom i can call at night, a person to wake at Sahur n a person to gossip with on the phone while killing the time before berbuka =)
i really miss those moments..maybe not the person, but the feeling of loving someone n being loved in return..*sigh*
even though the relationship was a short one n eventually didn't workout, i never regret it. a close friend of mine said never regret things, but rather make them lessons to remind u not to repeat the same mistakes.point taken.
today while sitting down in my couch updating this, i am actually thankful to Allah for showing me that "he" was not the one.i may have loved him for a while but Allah said he isn't the one for me.he may be capable of fulfilling my dreams (some of it) but i know for a fact that he can't complete me.
we might have thought that some persons are meant to be with us n how we hope things would happen the way we planned it but who are we to deny fate?
he may seem to be the best, but he's not perfect for me. =)
so last Ramadhan, may u rest in peace..
p/s-he doesn't know this new blog so i don't gv a damn..Selamat Berpuasa to all =)
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
chicken soup for the soul
after putting on countless efforts, going through sleepless nights, crying my silent cries, i think its time for me to leave everything to Allah..
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Introvert
a friend of mine told me that i am an introvert..
in my defence, i told him that i do socializing, facebooking, tweeting n what not..a lot of things i did publically.what else he wants me to do?
i guess he is of the view that i am as what he said because people would always wonder what is actually on my mind n what i am actually feeling deep down inside..
i prefer to keep things to myself...well ALMOST.but the most private things, only i would know.it saves a lot of energy and effort and also tears coz shud i share it with someone, no one would actually understand what i'm feeling.at the end of the day, we are in control of our own deeds n feeling.n if i shatter inside, only me myself and i would really understand what i'm going through.
*sigh*
i seldom write now. my passion in blogging had ceased along with my cessation in my obsession to certain things.i no longer regard few things as my fascination.yep..ppl might've heard this and only one thing would cloud their mind..blv me, they are not wrong.
as much as i try not to hurt so much, that "much" is also undoubtfully killing me inside.sorry i can't do more than i've ever described in previous entries (in my old blog) as i'm not that good with words, but all i can say is, i am empty now.
i'm empty, i feel empty, empty.
i can't talk much on it.
i try to be as cool as i dont know who.
i try to fake a smile.
but i can't.
the sincere smile from my face is gone..i dont know how to smile properly again.forget about laughing cause laughter is long gone..
in my defence, i told him that i do socializing, facebooking, tweeting n what not..a lot of things i did publically.what else he wants me to do?
i guess he is of the view that i am as what he said because people would always wonder what is actually on my mind n what i am actually feeling deep down inside..
i prefer to keep things to myself...well ALMOST.but the most private things, only i would know.it saves a lot of energy and effort and also tears coz shud i share it with someone, no one would actually understand what i'm feeling.at the end of the day, we are in control of our own deeds n feeling.n if i shatter inside, only me myself and i would really understand what i'm going through.
*sigh*
i seldom write now. my passion in blogging had ceased along with my cessation in my obsession to certain things.i no longer regard few things as my fascination.yep..ppl might've heard this and only one thing would cloud their mind..blv me, they are not wrong.
as much as i try not to hurt so much, that "much" is also undoubtfully killing me inside.sorry i can't do more than i've ever described in previous entries (in my old blog) as i'm not that good with words, but all i can say is, i am empty now.
i'm empty, i feel empty, empty.
i can't talk much on it.
i try to be as cool as i dont know who.
i try to fake a smile.
but i can't.
the sincere smile from my face is gone..i dont know how to smile properly again.forget about laughing cause laughter is long gone..
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Get.It.Right
What have I done? I wish I could run . Away from this ship going under . Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone else . Now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders . What can you do when your good isn't good enough? . When all that you touch tumbles down? . 'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things . I just wanna fix it somehow . but how many times will it take? . Oh, how many times will it take for me? . To get it right . To get it right . Can I start again with my faith shaken? . 'Cause I can't go back and undo this . I just have to stay and face my mistakes . But if I get stronger and wiser . I'll get through this . What can you do when your good isn't good enough? . When all that you touch tumbles down? . 'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things . So I throw up my fist . Throw a punch in the air . And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair . Yeah, I'll send down a wish . Yeah, I'll send up a prayer . And finally, someone will see .How much I care! . What can you do when your good isn't good enough? . When all that you touch tumbles down? . 'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Surveys for the bored ones like moi
this was taken from here. i luv ya sistah!
Out of 100, see how many random stuff that go around my life.
1. I woke up in the afternoon today.
2. I have at least three picture frames in my room.
3. My trash can is full.
4. I love snow globes, but I’d never buy one.
5. I use my regular phone more than my cell phone.
6. I’m single, but I don’t want to be.
7. My hair is not layered.
8. I hate the term “best friend,” but I use it anyway.
9. I get along with my mum more than my dad.
10. I like making beaded bracelets.
11. I’ve never run for class president/treasurer, etc.
12. Most of my friends are white.
13. I have over 150 CDs in my collection.
14. I would rather listen to the radio than CDs.
15. I own whiteout, but I barely ever use it.
16. I’m very shy until you get to know me.
17. Some take my shyness as being mean/rude.
18. Most people probably don’t understand me.
19. I have a very random sense of humor.
20. I do not consider myself attractive.
21. I feel that I’m more mature than most people my age.
22. But not all the time.
23. I used to pick my nose and wipe it on the wall.
24. I’d rather be cold than hot.
25. I always wait for that one person to sign on.
26. I’m probably online too much for my own good.
27. I am trying to lose weight and it’s not working out very well.
28. I own a LOT of chapstick. A LOT.
29. I love to buy paper… but I barely use it.
30. I write in my paper journal once a day or more.
31. I am an American, yet I find them annoying.
32. I’ve used binoculars the wrong way before.
33. I’m thirsty, but I can’t be bothered to go get something.
34. One of my best friends is that of the opposite sex.
35. Sometimes I feel really, really sorry for myself.
2. I have at least three picture frames in my room.
3. My trash can is full.
4. I love snow globes, but I’d never buy one.
5. I use my regular phone more than my cell phone.
6. I’m single, but I don’t want to be.
7. My hair is not layered.
8. I hate the term “best friend,” but I use it anyway.
9. I get along with my mum more than my dad.
10. I like making beaded bracelets.
11. I’ve never run for class president/treasurer, etc.
12. Most of my friends are white.
13. I have over 150 CDs in my collection.
14. I would rather listen to the radio than CDs.
15. I own whiteout, but I barely ever use it.
16. I’m very shy until you get to know me.
17. Some take my shyness as being mean/rude.
18. Most people probably don’t understand me.
19. I have a very random sense of humor.
20. I do not consider myself attractive.
21. I feel that I’m more mature than most people my age.
22. But not all the time.
23. I used to pick my nose and wipe it on the wall.
24. I’d rather be cold than hot.
25. I always wait for that one person to sign on.
26. I’m probably online too much for my own good.
27. I am trying to lose weight and it’s not working out very well.
28. I own a LOT of chapstick. A LOT.
29. I love to buy paper… but I barely use it.
30. I write in my paper journal once a day or more.
31. I am an American, yet I find them annoying.
32. I’ve used binoculars the wrong way before.
33. I’m thirsty, but I can’t be bothered to go get something.
34. One of my best friends is that of the opposite sex.
35. Sometimes I feel really, really sorry for myself.
36. My stomach hurts a little bit right now.
37. Other times I feel really, really lucky.
38. I have a friend (or more) who creeps me out.
39. I have more than one shelf up in my room.
40. It’s sunny out today.
41. I don’t have a car.
42. I’m very picky with food.
43. I have a hard time with directions.
44. I am a little bit obsessive compulsive.
45. I talk to myself in the mirror sometimes.
46. I don’t have that many DVDs yet.
48. I feel very sick if a movie is gory.
49. I have a lot in common with my best friend.
50. I believe in the theory that opposites attract.
51. I’ve liked someone who is at least four years older than me.
52. I’ve started a fire/explosion in the microwave oven before.
53. I’m worried that one of my pets will die soon.
55. Never been THAT drunk, but it might be kinda fun.
56. Sometimes I act drunk even when I’m not.
57. It annoys me when people chew loudly.
58. And breathe loudly.
59. And click their pens like crazy.
60. I enjoy bold surveys, mostly ‘cause I have no life.
61. I’d rather have a popsicle than popcorn.
62. I’d rather do laundry than the dishes.
63. Someday, I will go to England.
64. I’d rather be in a dark room than a bright one.
65. My alarm clock annoys me very, very much.
66. When I was younger, I went to summer school for fun.
67. I was made fun of in middle school.
68. I’ve never eaten sushi and never will.
69. I remember where I was when I first learned to whistle.
70. If Barney is on TV, I will still sit there and watch.
71. MySpace is annoying, but I’m pretty much addicted to it.
72. I hAtE iT wHeN pPl TyPe LyK dIs!!!
73. When I talk to my crush, I get too excited.
74. People have told me that I’m sexy before.
75. I never believe it when they do.
76. I love to write, but whenever I start something new I can’t finish it.
77. I love to read.
78. If I lay down and watch TV, I end up falling asleep.
79. I absolutely LOVE riding my bike.
80. I love to play badminton, but I don’t play often.
81. I have never been on a sports team before.
82. I’m in at least one advanced placement class.
83. I’m in the class of 2013.
84. Jacuzzis and hot tubs are very relaxing.
85. I have stood up and done something else during this survey.
86. I space out a lot.
87. I’ve made a shelf in a store collapse before.
88. I’m a big crybaby, and I know it.
89. I wouldn’t mind having a ferret for a pet.
90. I love to watch home videos.
91. I miss my childhood and wish I could go back.
92. I’d rather brush my teeth normally than use an electric toothbrush.
93. Dippin’ Dots are good.
94. I feel like I’m more confident than I used to be.
95. My friends come to me for advice often.
96. I’ve had over five significant others in my lifetime.
97. I have cheated on one or more of them before.
98. Last year’s math class was completely useless.
99. I hate the fact that I’m growing up. I don’t want to.
100. I miss a lot of my old friends, but not all of them
39. I have more than one shelf up in my room.
40. It’s sunny out today.
41. I don’t have a car.
42. I’m very picky with food.
43. I have a hard time with directions.
44. I am a little bit obsessive compulsive.
45. I talk to myself in the mirror sometimes.
46. I don’t have that many DVDs yet.
48. I feel very sick if a movie is gory.
49. I have a lot in common with my best friend.
50. I believe in the theory that opposites attract.
51. I’ve liked someone who is at least four years older than me.
52. I’ve started a fire/explosion in the microwave oven before.
53. I’m worried that one of my pets will die soon.
55. Never been THAT drunk, but it might be kinda fun.
56. Sometimes I act drunk even when I’m not.
57. It annoys me when people chew loudly.
58. And breathe loudly.
59. And click their pens like crazy.
60. I enjoy bold surveys, mostly ‘cause I have no life.
61. I’d rather have a popsicle than popcorn.
62. I’d rather do laundry than the dishes.
63. Someday, I will go to England.
64. I’d rather be in a dark room than a bright one.
65. My alarm clock annoys me very, very much.
66. When I was younger, I went to summer school for fun.
67. I was made fun of in middle school.
68. I’ve never eaten sushi and never will.
69. I remember where I was when I first learned to whistle.
70. If Barney is on TV, I will still sit there and watch.
71. MySpace is annoying, but I’m pretty much addicted to it.
72. I hAtE iT wHeN pPl TyPe LyK dIs!!!
73. When I talk to my crush, I get too excited.
74. People have told me that I’m sexy before.
75. I never believe it when they do.
76. I love to write, but whenever I start something new I can’t finish it.
77. I love to read.
78. If I lay down and watch TV, I end up falling asleep.
79. I absolutely LOVE riding my bike.
80. I love to play badminton, but I don’t play often.
81. I have never been on a sports team before.
82. I’m in at least one advanced placement class.
83. I’m in the class of 2013.
84. Jacuzzis and hot tubs are very relaxing.
85. I have stood up and done something else during this survey.
86. I space out a lot.
87. I’ve made a shelf in a store collapse before.
88. I’m a big crybaby, and I know it.
89. I wouldn’t mind having a ferret for a pet.
90. I love to watch home videos.
91. I miss my childhood and wish I could go back.
92. I’d rather brush my teeth normally than use an electric toothbrush.
93. Dippin’ Dots are good.
94. I feel like I’m more confident than I used to be.
95. My friends come to me for advice often.
96. I’ve had over five significant others in my lifetime.
97. I have cheated on one or more of them before.
98. Last year’s math class was completely useless.
99. I hate the fact that I’m growing up. I don’t want to.
100. I miss a lot of my old friends, but not all of them
43 out of 100. I don't really enjoy doing this but its better than having to stare into the blank screen on my pc for hours..haha
*ok sambung buat kerja*
Monday, June 20, 2011
Thursday, May 19, 2011
flat
yesterday was a very tiring day.
my route: Gombak-Bangsar-Jln Ipoh-Putrajaya-Bangsar-Bukit Damansara-Bangsar-Gombak
so that is why last night i slept for almost 12 hours..
haihhhh..
my route: Gombak-Bangsar-Jln Ipoh-Putrajaya-Bangsar-Bukit Damansara-Bangsar-Gombak
so that is why last night i slept for almost 12 hours..
haihhhh..
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Monday, May 9, 2011
a little on work..
work..
what options do i have to talk on work other than ranting about hate?
not that i hate my job...nooooo no no..=)
being a practicing lawyer is my passion..
its my work place..
Hate..*take note of the capital H*
i believe Allah is always fair..
someday i'll be rewarded..insyaallah....
*counting my blessings*
=)
what options do i have to talk on work other than ranting about hate?
not that i hate my job...nooooo no no..=)
being a practicing lawyer is my passion..
its my work place..
Hate..*take note of the capital H*
i believe Allah is always fair..
someday i'll be rewarded..insyaallah....
*counting my blessings*
=)
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
i have dibs on that werewolf!
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| its a good movie with so many twists in it..go watch it!! |
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| valerie & peter |
i just wanna highlight that it got one of my obsessions in it - Werewolf!!!!
haha..
i'm just nuts over werewolves..the one in this movie is hot..but not as hot as Jacob Black
well...i like the ending though...the girl ended up with the werewolf..
enough said..i give 4 out of 5 stars for this twisted piece.
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| one hot werewolf he is..aite?? |
Sunday, April 24, 2011
oh puh-lease!
OMG!!!
**
Oh my God!!
hmmm..some ppl questioned me..why hvnt i opted for "Ya Allah", "Ya Rabbi" instead of the westernly-OMG..
stupid.period
translation: Oh Tuhanku! (its Malay language if you should know)
saying it in English, does that make me un-Islamic??
i know to whom i prostrate to 5 times daily.
i know who my Creator is.
i don't hv to explain each time i get a stupid smirk from ppl around me who thought i was being too modern a Muslim who is too proud to say "Ya Allah" instead of OMG..
read this..my sister explained it brilliantly..
please la ppl..
don't be sooo Kampung.
even "Oh Lord" does not make me a sinner.
n yes..Allah is Great..
He understands even languages that you n I never heard of.
He knows..
Friday, April 22, 2011
sordid
it may seem bad to some ppl (or maybe all)
but its not easy for me to swallow..
i mean, let go.
bye
Thursday, April 21, 2011
legal profession
i only got the chance to really sit down n write today when there's no court..*sigh*
i really enjoyed going to court, going up n down the building, getting lectures from the Judges, got pissed off with court's staffs, getting blisters on my feet, bumping into politicians, celebrities n all - i wont complaint much..i'm a lawyer - its my bread n butter..above all my ups n downs while being in this profession, i always remember one thing -- its my PASSION.
so i dont mind having to go to court 5 days in a week..believe me, it is super-tiring but it is totally worth it doing things that you love. =)
i really enjoyed going to court, going up n down the building, getting lectures from the Judges, got pissed off with court's staffs, getting blisters on my feet, bumping into politicians, celebrities n all - i wont complaint much..i'm a lawyer - its my bread n butter..above all my ups n downs while being in this profession, i always remember one thing -- its my PASSION.
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| BC should hv this..kan? |
so i dont mind having to go to court 5 days in a week..believe me, it is super-tiring but it is totally worth it doing things that you love. =)
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