Thursday, August 18, 2011

last year's August 18

i copied this from my old blog..heheh..here was what i wrote a year ago.

"Wednesday, August 18, 2010

a real turn off

saya x suka orang yg busy gile.

busy sgt smpai xde masa even nk ckp "hi".
kalau 24/7 camtu, perlu ke nk berhubung?


heh..turn off.

Friday, August 12, 2011

Les Pliages Longchamp


i bought it for RM35 only
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at Feringghi night market okayyyyyy..
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but i made it look RM3500 by adding to it my purple burberry scarf. *i tak mampu beli sendiri*
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punchline??? i want another.black =)

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

rintihan hati!!

wait!!its Wednesday already??i'm not gonna make it a wordless day bcoz i hv sooo many things on my mind:

today
1) 8 prohibitory order applications - sure die one....

2) 1 submission - due friday

3) prepare for tmrw's trial n mediation - *mataku kelip2*

4) crack the head to think of what to cook for Iftar


tomorrow
1) case managemant @ SAHC - morning

2) full trial @ KLHC - right after shah alam

3) divorce mediation @ KLHC - 2.30 pm

4) again cracking the head - what to cook???????!!


by the end of tomorrow i'll be like a vegetable..a broccoli to be exact =P

Monday, August 8, 2011

Last Ramadhan

i know this entry would be a boring one bcoz i want to reminisce the old times during last year's Ramadhan..hehe..i may be living with the ghosts of my past, but they always remind me of life experiences that i should ponder on.

btw, i'm at home down with conjunctivitis n i've got nothing else better to do other than blogging =)

last year's Ramadhan, was one of the best.why?because during that time i had a person whom i can call my lover..haha!!true enough.i was in a real relationship last puasa..i had someone whom i can call at night, a person to wake at Sahur n a person to gossip with on the phone while killing the time before berbuka =)

i really miss those moments..maybe not the person, but the feeling of loving someone n being loved in return..*sigh*

even though the relationship was a short one n eventually didn't workout, i never regret it. a close friend of mine said never regret things, but rather make them lessons to remind u not to repeat the same mistakes.point taken.

today while sitting down in my couch updating this, i am actually thankful to Allah for showing me that "he" was not the one.i may have loved him for a while but Allah said he isn't the one for me.he may be capable of fulfilling my dreams (some of it) but i know for a fact that he can't complete me.

we might have thought that some persons are meant to be with us n how we hope things would happen the way we planned it but who are we to deny fate?

he may seem to be the best, but he's not perfect for me. =)

so last Ramadhan, may u rest in peace..


p/s-he doesn't know this new blog so i don't gv a damn..Selamat Berpuasa to all =)

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

chicken soup for the soul

after putting on countless efforts, going through sleepless nights, crying my silent cries, i think its time for me to leave everything to Allah..

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Introvert

a friend of mine told me that i am an introvert..

in my defence, i told him that i do socializing, facebooking, tweeting n what not..a lot of things i did publically.what else he wants me to do?

i guess he is of the view that i am as what he said because people would always wonder what is actually on my mind n what i am actually feeling deep down inside..

i prefer to keep things to myself...well ALMOST.but the most private things, only i would know.it saves a lot of energy and effort and also tears coz shud i share it with someone, no one would actually understand what i'm feeling.at the end of the day, we are in control of our own deeds n feeling.n if i shatter inside, only me myself and i would really understand what i'm going through.

*sigh*

i seldom write now. my passion in blogging had ceased along with my cessation in my obsession to certain things.i no longer regard few things as my fascination.yep..ppl might've heard this and only one thing would cloud their mind..blv me, they are not wrong.

as much as i try not to hurt so much, that "much" is also undoubtfully killing me inside.sorry i can't do more than i've ever described in previous entries (in my old blog) as i'm not that good with words, but all i can say is, i am empty now.

i'm empty, i feel empty, empty.

i can't talk much on it.

i try to be as cool as i dont know who.

i try to fake a smile.

but i can't.

the sincere smile from my face is gone..i dont know how to smile properly again.forget about laughing cause laughter is long gone..